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Saturday, 07 January 2012

  • what do you know. a year to the day and i return to write another post. 

    This year has been fun. it's been good. difficult at times but i've done a lot and yet not as much as i wish i had. 

    i'm hoping to move out one day soon. but it seems like such a big step. 
    i'm still have a safety net underneath me. i don't want to take advantage of it. but if i can just stay here a little longer....

    is it worth it?

    idk. it comes with  price. sometimes i don't mind paying it. other times. i seems like to much to bear.

     

     

Friday, 07 January 2011

  • Life.....

    it didn't turn out the way i thought it would but it's ok. God has a way of taking what
    we plan our lives to look like and conforming it to what His will is. Despite my frustration
    because my plans keep changing i am comforted in the fact that He is in control and
    knows what is best. There have been many things that i have been saved from. things
    that i thought i knew what was best. but by grace and mercy have been changed, and
    i am no longer held by them. it hasn't always been easy but the journey has been prosperous.

Wednesday, 29 December 2010

  • wow, it's been over a year since i posted on here last. it's been quite a year too.

    more change in my life. but for the better. that's what i think anyway. 

    Long distance relationships.... i've had mixed feelings about them in the past. 
    it's always seemed to me that when someone was in a long distance relationship 
    they were dating an  idea. because when you don't see a person for a while you
     tend to only remember the good about them. it's only a shell persay. 

    but recently i've had a change about these feelings. I've developed a fondness
    for a girl. and she lives quite a distance away from me. and while yes, i do tend
    to remember the good about her, there is so much more to long distance relationships
    then there is to dating the girl next door. it takes a lot of trust and faith for long distance
    relationships to work.  the relationship isn't based upon physical touch, and 
    i'll see her for about a month but then it'll be a while til i see her again. It requires
    a lot of work. but any relationship that you put work into is worth it. and this one, 
    it's worth it. it's been a little difficult. it's required a lot of communication, talking
    on the phone, writing little notes on facebook. it takes patience and i feel it's more 
    rewarding then some have been in the past. 

    anyway, maybe i'll be back more. 

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • Is Hope a Curse?

    In an effort to increase my liturature knowledge I've been trying to read more books, and I've currently been reading one in particular called "Pandora's Curse". I'm almost done, but I came across a very interesting paragraph in which one of the characters explains what he calls a paradox to the mythological story of Pandora.

    For those who are unaware of this story, I'll explain it in a nutshell. Pandora in Greek mythology was the first woman, created by the God's to punish Prometheus for stealing fire, and was given to Epimetheus, who was Prometheus's brother. Out of curiousity she opened a box or jar (depending on the translation) of given by Zeus, by doing this she accidentally released all the ills on the world, such as greed enby and disease before she could close it again. This was Zeus's revenge for Prometheus stealing the fire of the God's. However, there was one thing that remained in the box when she closed it. It was hope.

    The character in the book proposed an interesting question, why was hope locked in box with all the other evils? He goes on to say that, "hope is just as destructive as any of the others, maybe worse. It was never meant to be a gift from the gods. It was a punishment. Hope gives you strength when you have a chance, but when the situation's impossible, it becomes a torture."

    Is hope really a curse? Do you find is toture when hoping for something you know won't come true?

     

    On a side note, have you read any good books lately?

Thursday, 15 October 2009

  • Second Thoughts

    Recently I've been having doubts about why I'm currently enrolled in college. Last year I had classes that i enjoyed, as well as learned in, well i learned in most of them. This year, however, has been different. I've been extremely apathetic in my classes. I find it hard to want to be there, and my passion for knowledge has waned. I am beginning to really doubt if i want to come back after the spring semester. Because of how my scholarship works i am able to take a year off and am still able to come back and stay on scholarship, so i'm really debating about if i want to take next fall off, and work somewhere, or see if i want to finish my degree somewhere else. A change of scenery might help.

    it would really help if i knew what i wanted to do with my life, but i don't know if that's possible.

    can't i just grow up already.

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